it was only a kiss

if you're testing my strength, i've won.

if this is a test of my love, again, i am victorious.

willpower? any other day, every day...i have been at the top.

"but it wouldn't stop there. why do you have to be so pretty, so smart?"

if i were to consider my longing, i would easily eliminate pride, loneliness, and physical intimacy. there is just something so incredibly urgent, so necessary, about that warmth--that connection--from that person.

"it would be perfect."

there's not even the "what if" variable. it is certain.

i beginning to think that this is better than the real thing.