some things on my mind

back to lists:

1. cherries are my favorite fruit but i'm annoyed that they're associated with sexuality, often sported by virginal adolescent females.

2. what the hell, exactly, is Bollywood? i don't get it.

3. since when is India considered part of Asia? did i miss that much of my global studies classes? am i that ethnocentric? nationalistic?

4. i wish i had an excuse to shave my head because i want to, but don't have the courage to do so.

5. i also want a Brazilian Wax, but i don't want to look like a porn star. well, in that area anyway.

6. i need to be a nicer person.

7. i miss romance. i miss it more than anything in the world.

8. i haven't been to the gym in what feels like 3 weeks. and i've been eating really unhealthy foods. that makes me feel really flabby.

9. i'm not sure how much i weigh.

10.i just found out through some other students that the boys in my class like to talk about my ass. i find this terribly troublesome.

11.while the rumors were sustained about me and Mr. Married Man, one perk was that it kept another pervy co-worker at bay. but now he's getting quite inappropriate and i'm not sure how to handle it. i'll likely do nothing.

12.whenever i throw out a number in an effort to exaggerate something, i consistenly use the number twelve. even if the result is not an exaggeration at all.

13.i have no money and likely won't have any until this coming September. dealing with living paycheck-to-paycheck made me cry twice this week.

14.i cannot wait for the summertime. i need something new and fresh, even if it is ultimately more of the same. (i will travel, if only a few hours away. that's what i used to do. i don't want that part of me to dissipate any further. i fear i am losing myself sometimes.)